Settle Down Easy...

B sings this song to our sweet Rose when she is nestled in his arms. She knows the melody, and often takes a deep breath and sighs when she hears it.

I can't even begin to explain how different our day to day world has become. Long story short? Rose has saved us from ourselves and crafted us into something that I never thought we could be. As parents, we are strong and brave. As a couple, we are solid and madly in love.

There are days that the balance is a bit out of wack. There are times when I become unraveled and frustrated, but I try my best to work it out inside of myself instead of burdening anyone else with how I am feeling. That... is a huge improvement. I've always had the tendency to throw my hands up, get angry and crash and burn. As most of all, I would bring anyone I could with me.

I don't care all that much about my battles anymore. There is no problem that is too big that I can't fix. Simple is best. Life has become so precious. Every moment that we spend as a family is full of love and happiness. Is it all perfect? Absolutely not. But we live like each moment is the best. And honestly? I've never felt better about it. I know that life is short and someday... Well, I don't even want to think about it... but it will all be over. So why not enjoy every single second? All bullshit can check itself at the door. That goes for my own and everyone else's.

The guest list in our lives has significantly changed. The people that I talk to and confide in are people that I believe in and help me to be a better person. Mostly, they are people that I feel are good enough to be strong influences in my daughter's life.



Today Rose laughed out loud for the very first time. It came from the bottom of her toes and made such a delicious noise... it brought tears to my eyes. I laughed so hard along with her and held her close to me. The joy I feel every day is overflowing out of me. It's like a drug that you can't bottle... Like a water that I want to pour over myself again and again... The gift of her precious life in our lives just keeps on giving.